I really want to see things from Rachael’s point of view. I just wanna figure out how I fucked things up so badly….

 

It is so boring being stuck in this bed. I need to be out there, training. Especially after the other night. That was some scary shit. Then of course, there was the herd.

Rachael! What happened? Jay bustled into my  room, all cargo pants, boots, shiny hair and rosy cheeks. Ugh.

Hi, Jay. I turned to face the window. I was so not in the mood for her.

So….?

Twisted my ankle in all the almost dead-silent excitement of the other night.

Oh, that sucks. Jay plopped herself into the chair next to the bed. I turned to face the wall.

What’s with the welcoming committee? Jay’s tone was jovial, but I could see the flush in her cheeks at the snub I decided then that I might as well go all in.

Are you even kidding me? It takes you two days to even realize anything is going on with me, and you don’t even know the half it! Plus, you blow Jack off, even though he really likes you and he’s an awesome guy. Every time I have tried to see you, you are off hugging trees or some bullshit!

I’m sorry – I…

You do know you have to work at friendships you know? It isn’t all organic and ‘since we were babies’ crap like it was with Hayley.

I know, but…

Yeah but you DON’T even know. I took a breath. Ben and I broke up.

There was a too long a pause before Jay gave me a small oh.

Well that just fucking takes it. I could see it in her eyes and slump of her shoulders. You knew what he was like, didn’t you?

Look, I thought maybe that…

What a load of crap. You just offloaded him on to me. You really are a self-obsessed bitch.

Jay stood up, looking stricken. I guess I better go.

Guess you’d better. Lord, I cannot believe the nerve of her.